Pinpointing what is going on with me…

I had this little epiphany. I said something to myself in a lighthearted kind of way, then realized how much deeper it really went… The thought was: I just want to feel needed.

After I said it I realized how true it rang in my soul.

See, lately I’ve been feeling a little off. I’ve been feeling this way because for the first time in many years I feel like I don’t have any really close friends in my local area, and I am also not dating anyone at the moment.

Don’t get me wrong, I know some great people, some of them I feel a good connection with, but the deep, intimate connections that I do have, and that I value and cherish so, are spread across the country and the world right now. These are people I can open my soul to, share what I have to give with, and feel those same things in return with… And I am so genuinely grateful for these wonderful people, and I love them dearly, but they aren’t here with me… to celebrate with when I have exciting things going on, to give me a hug when I am blue, to lounge with or go on adventures with me… to just be with me when I need the physical presence of someone I feel that true connection with. I need that, we all need that.

But I also need to feel needed.

I want to be there for others… to give that high-five, or hug, or shoulder to lean on, or caring ear when they need it… I want it to feel like we need each other. Because we do.

I couldn’t sleep when this came to me and I had to get it out…

Restlessness of the soul is a good thing… It means that the deepest knowing parts of you are not willing to give up on you – on a more fulfilling life – on the life you deserve. Restlessness of the soul is our depths fighting against that internal death. That stirring proves we are alive! And we should honor that restlessness by listening to it… and if its only a faint whisper that is a little unclear, foster it and love it until it grows stronger. Because it knows, it knows your potential, your truths… what you are meant to be… what you need… Even when you don’t. – me 

The complete tea set for my niece. If it got bisque fired like it was supposed to, I will be glazing today, and should have final pics next week!

One of my stick molds with fungi added. I did the mold with one kind of clay(slip), and the fungi in another whiter kind of clay. I plan to just fire it natural and see how it turns out.

Real success is finding your lifework in the work that you love. - David McCullough